A New Year

2009.
for me it was a turning point in my life i think.
in the beginning it was horrible actually, got very low marks in my degree examination from my expectation, not only mine but many people i think..
i can remember many facial expressions of different people..
then it was the period of entrance examinations..
ya, finally i got admission in CIEFL, the new EFL university.
you know it was after this i even visited my teachers after my degree examination:)

then EFL university ...

i stopped, not stopped gave a pause to my political life having a history of more than 14 years,ya i started it from my 2nd standard itself...
it was a tough decision actually, many people who supported me in political career haven't digested this decision even now.

eflu...

it was a new world for me actually.

but i found so many interesting characters there...
people living in different worlds, different cultures and having very different thoughts too...

the only similarity was our madness....
ya...i found so many mad people there..

and some politics too..
in the first sight i thout it is superb, very different from usual party oriented politics which was famalier to me.
then slowly i got some worst experiance from that too..
but any way it is very cool.( handle with care)

then so many other people too.
the people that we can see every corner of world, who is very much concerned about other's life, not life but other negatives and thier life is fully filled with life of other people:).

people who have very much concern about thier pets(no comments from my side anyway; thier life, thier things...)

some other people who have least concern about others...

social retards( actualy they are not )

and so many ...

and some very interesting people too....

Pshychosssssss

i don't know how to describe my buddies.

but they gave me a new life..

late night walks..
my birthday night..
KFC days..
BIg bazzar..
REddy's...
Internet lab...
doing assignments in the last minutes...
ONam...d adam and eve..

and a lot of friends too

theatre workshop...
probs commiitte..
our PM Neethu chechi..
my Prabha chechi...
and post drama party...

a lot of things...

PPkzz b'day..
d midnite shopping with shail macha for PPkzzz b'day...;)
movie shows in ma lappy with vaish and dipsy and ma twin brthr so called achuuuuu....
mukka's late nite gud nite cum good mornings...
ppkzz phoilosophy too..
and tabssssssss.........it was her year actualy;)...dear.i am waiting for you to restart all our madness.....


and the gr8 family too
ma sister polo..
mummy aashi..
ma darling, daughter ,aunts..
and my gr8 granny and a lot of ppl too...
luv talks aftr teddy's b'day party...
this place is not enough i think to write all the names...

and a lot of seniors...
who s ready to give maggy parties to us when we are out of food and money too...
election days....meetings,abhi,ravi,shafeeq,ria de,somata,safa,sneha...and the so called mother of nagaland,elika
and a lot of things............................................
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how i can 4gt my taechers?
who gave many exceptions for our submission of assignments.

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2010.

a new year..

new decisions?
no maan...i am fed up with these type of thoughts..
every year i will decide something new..

may think i can change my life...

funny na.....?
but i will be the same always..
so no need of gr8 decisions this year anyway.

letzz hope this will be a good year to me.
not only for me but all my friends and those people in this psycho world too.
so happy new year.
if anyone is thinking to give me any new year gifts ...
please give me good camera.:)

happy new year to all.

need of enemy?

there are people who consider me as their enemy, known and unknown.
may be because of personal issues and many political issues.
now I'm talking about one man,
actually his problem is not me, but my father,
he was my father's best friend,(old friend is the one who can be the most cruel enemy)
at a point of time he started working against my father because of some matter in a public issue..

then he used to do so many things, so may complaints against Dad and even against me too.
that was the most important turning point in life..
i realised a fact.
when u have someone who is curiously watching for your mistakes, it will be helpful in our life..
how?


you will be conscious in all of your activities and will be able to do all things in a good manner too.
and most of all, u should have a reason to do more in life too

first crush

today i met that girl, the one i had felt 'a something' first in my life (once up on a time),after a long time too.
i don't know the reason, what was the reason behind that attraction?...
anyway i haven't told that thing to her, to anyone i think.

then, i met so many people in my life...
many crushes too.

life is very interesting,
the things that we think very seriously at a time may feel very silly after so many years...
now i am curious and very serious about so many things, so many people too.
what is the future of this things...???
life too?

suggestions..

u can give 10000 suggestions to anyone's problrms,
some times it will be usefull to them too,
but when it comes to you,
you can't do anything,
even you can't use the old suggestions you gave to your friend.

i met this thing many times in life...
even now.
searching for a solution.

fool

pretending lik a fool.....
u can avoid so many prblms in ur social lifff....
u can make so many fools too....

bloody fools.

realisation

an arrangement of convenience--- revolution, luv , and sumtyms liff tooo...
dont fel down n memoriezz.....
real freedom is freedom from our own memoriezz...
i knw all these things.
bt i cant liv without ma memoriezz, luv and frndzz....

politics

wn i was part of active politics i thought politics s d plce having worst dirty games ..bcz of the prblms btwn each othrs and methods used by various politicians to get positions and make thier positions ovr othrs and othr ego clashes and so on.....den i gv a pause to ma poltical career...
nw wn i watchin d internal politics btwn ppl i knw...
sum tyms i feel lyk dat,..
those politicians are btr dan these ppl...
they have reasons to do wat evr dey r doin...
bt y these ppl r doin lyk dis...
i'm totaly confused.
mad foolsssssss?


watzz d ideology??

my xmas

4 me xmas is one week of sleepless nyts...
just lyk d angels who gave d 'gr8 news of happiness' to d shepards, we used to go all houses of our village with songs with xmas pappa in the midnyt of every winter....
and d midnyt mass on the xams day...

bt just lyk any othr celebrations, every year d spirit is goin down i think...

der wl b change accrding to tym...

bt ...

merry xmas to all.
JESUS shud born in our hearts.....

reasons

because....
reasons.

every day v use d word 'because' to cover ourself from various problems, cover our negatives, cover ourself from our disadvantages and so on..

evn in relationships, we used to justify ourself....
bt wn we r justifying ourself......indirectly we r blamin d other 4 our mistakes.
true na?

faith

i have faith,
faith in my frndz,
faith in my memorzz,
faith in my dreamzz.

ma best frnd.....

3 years....v celebratd dat three years.....everyone admired our frndship..nt everyone..bt.
ya watzz nw....
nw itzz goin on..
bt.
we thought dat v r sumthin spl..very spl frndzz.
v were spl actualy..
bt nw.?
v r frndzzz....bt.

relationshipss

seriously i don knw hw to manage relationships........sumtyms i wl think i am creating sum prblms to ma frndz...over concern is ma prblm i think...i don knw...bt i want concern from ma frndzz.......bt i dont want tel ma prblms too...understanding shud b there na????
bt 4 me frndzz r d most valuable possession in ma lif...
bt nw a days thinks r changing...
ya,...tym can change everything...
realising sum facts..
accepting it too....

a new starting..

born in a smal village...nw doin ma pg ...i don knw whtr am on ma way ....
i hv lot of dreams...more dan dat ma dreamzz r nt only mine..bt a dream of a fathr too..
i hv seen many things in ma lif...nt philosophy..
bt from 1988....ya i born in 88...i am cumin thrw various phases of lifff.....
progres? a sort of...bt i don knw whtr i used dat comfort dat i got from des prgs in lif ( most of dem was result of ma fathr's hard work, datz the thing dat makes me more ......)...
here, nw i realising d tym, d rite tym to act...
towards ma dreamzz........
bt can i do dat???
i don knw......
dis s ma charctr, lack of self confidenzz? i think so..bt
ma public face is nt suitable 4 dat type of mind set too...
confused?
evn me....
i don knw....
am aby..
datzz all.