blurred,
both past and future,
the only cleared one is something,
not exactly the present,,
those unnamed moments,
somewhere between past and present,
or somewhere between present and near future,

he tried naming that,
he tried many times,
it have been past or sometimes future,
those blurred sea of events,
i cant see you,
you,you and you.

i cant see myself,
except some little drops...

its all blurred.

i came here,
i changed,
i cant go now.
then why did i change?

yeah dude,
you are too smart,
so that others can't understand your smart ways of treating people,
i saw you speaking to a large crowd about your ideologies,
you were very loud when you explained why you don't like public attention,
i remember you conducted more than 1000 meetings to explain this,

dude,
yes I'm a fool,
who can't understand any of your crocked ways of public life, or skills,
like those others around you,
or just understand that...
your life is gift of mercy..
of those thousand fools around you,
my smart friend.

a pain...
a fear...
a uncomfortable condition....
my heart is asking me to stay in ma hut,
i know the weather is fine there,
and the conditions are perfect,

but,
i cant go out,
i know i should,

but,
i know you can suggest me a solution,
if i can tel my problems,
no no its not about trust,
not about individuality,

reasonless.
purely reasonless.
it makes it more miserable.

i can hear the alarm,
i can hear people shouting,
everyone is happy,
everyone is enjoying out there, the new season.


adaptation,
its difficult.

it is almost over.
here i want to say sorry to you.
sorry,
dont think i have done some big crime to someone.
yeah i have done something.
i dont know whether you know about that...
its all up to you.
you can take it as a funny part.
or you can wait for a chance for a counter attack ;).
i dont care.
yeah..i dont care.
but i want to say sorry.
just because it makes me more myself.

more meeeee.

sorry.



i want to became more myself.
i was someone else for sometime.

i'm not under a bodhi tree...:)
wants to be more myself..
more aby-ish.

for thattttttttttttttttt........
sorry!!!!.

This is about you, who can’t understand true love.
This is about you, who can’t determine who is your true friend,
This is about you, who always think about relationships,
This is about you, who can’t just float through relationships,
This is about you, who take things serious to your head always,
This is about you, who are confused when it is the case of relationships,
This is about you,
This is about me.

new photo blog...

http://abhadangal.blogspot.com/

ohhh......why i took a 4 week gap to write an another blog?
actually a lots of things happend after my last blog.
a lots of things...
i found so many interesting things..
actually it was the conclusion peroid of so many things...
it was a learing period...
here i'm with so many notes...
that i had got from so many people...
so many experiances...
here i have to edit it...read it.
its time foe updates.....
its the time.

this is the perfect time to take a position...
climate changes..
chance for a rain?
its too hot here...
I'm tired.
i tried my maximum to overcome the heat.
but....
i can't go further.
i thought i will get someone to share this.
they were busy with their own needs.....
they may have similar problems...?

also, i found another interesting point.
the temperature here,
around myself,
it is different from others...
and it is not going with others'


waiting for a rain....
yeah, its cloudy today.
i can hear the sounds of thunder.

today may be the perfect day.


waiting for the rain.

you are hard, you are strong, you can survive through any situations,
you are sensitive, you are light and can't survive .
so please be conscious when taking decisions.

some of the trees will survive all rainy seasons and big winds.
it looks so strong tooo.
it looks like no one can make any harm to it.

but infrond of cyclones,
everyone will be same...

also sometimes..
below the "big trees",
we can see small plants with beautiful flowers....
the "weak plants".


they will not laugh.
they are so sensitive,
they will be sad because of the fate of "big trees".

Yea.
This was there all the time,

I used to wonder why people cant understand my love and concern for them.

That state of mind is something...
The other side of the coin.
I never understood those people who really care and love me...


I dont get the philosophy behind this.

But those who love are the people who get ignored by others always.
And we go and go
Searching for new faces and places.


..............

some fool

hey,
we have so many concepts and theories in every point of life, right?
some fool said that you need daily conversations to keep your close ones together.
some fool said that love is not possible without minute to minute updates with your partner.
some fool said that friendship is everything.

i was a fool for a long time....

life is full of changes.

friend.

New Year

da....today is new year of Telungu people called Ugadi, like Vishu in our place.
they have so many celebrations like what we have there in kerala. the most interesting thing is Pachchadi.All the family members and friends sit together for this traditional sauce called Ugadi Pachchadi. It is a mixture of the following products:

Neem leaves which is good for patients who have diabetes and skin diseases
Jaggery increases haemoglobin level and sugarcane juice fights against jaundice.
Raw mango and Tamarind juice are consumed with almost every dish prepared by women of Karnataka and Andhra Pardesh.
and it is belived that the taste that you get from the first sip of Ugadi Pachchadi will be your luck throughout the year.
Also Ugadi Pachchadi signifies that life is not a smooth journey. All sorrows, happiness, success and disappointment must be given due importance. All experiences have to be treated equally as it makes us learn something new every time and prepares us for the rest. It makes us develop positive attitude towards life. People also make some resolutions and pray to God for their well-being and prosperity. i think resolutions is the only common thing throughout the world that we usually makes on new years, almost same resolutions every year.
now the time is about 4 AM in the morning, don't know whether i can go to mess in the morning to have that drink. hoping i will get Sweet taste .....for a good year :) .
hoping you are doing good.
Your Br.

letters....

unknown self died yesterday.....now it is time for letters....in this world of chatting and sms....but i like it..I'm not that modern....its not like that i hate it or something...simply like that.

Spirits...

what will be thier life?
ohh...they dont have life na...?
spirits are everywhere....
you cant see them,
unless you want to see them.
you will not notice them,
unless you decide.
everyone can be spirits.
everyone can be unnoticable,
everyone can be invisible.

now even I'm a spirit.
can you see me?

Gandhi, Sachin , Mohanlal.

u may think what is the common connection between these people.....

these are the three people who i realy admire in thier respective areas...
Gandhi as a gr8 leader,
Sachin as a gr8 cricket player,
mohanlal as a gr8 actor,

something about me...
sensitive..
who always care about what people thinking about me..
one who belived that i can be friendly with everyone...

So...i am coming back to my heros...
eventhough these people have many unique qualities,
i used to hear many bad comments about them by many poeple...

if i'm sure about what i'm .......y should i care about your comments?
thanks eflu...
i know now...
how to say f--k off......to those....

silence

that moment...

i was silent.

i was silent.

i don't know why...

but i was silent...

now.

so many people are asking so many questions...

because of that silence...

i became a very silent one...

forever?

colourless.....

never..
never in my life....
i never had been in a situation like this in my life...

all the eyes are staring at me?

for some people, they got a good time, apt time to backstab.

but for me they are not a subject,
there are people who have concern about me,
who used to care about me, who likes me.......

now?

it was a mistake...
that feeling of guilty..oh..

i should move on from it...

i can, i know....

but....

but even in that situation,i expected some people..
who have sense to understand,
who can be with me..
sounds very funny actually.



a very important period of life..
so many lessons..
for my future life...

i will be OK.

MASK...

masks...
you can't live without that in this world??????

you should smile,
you should be patient...
you should do altot of things..... according to what society expect from you....

socialisation?

the funny part of the story is we usualy wear this mask even infrond of mirror,
to hide ourself tooo....

or

we actualy don't know anything about us...

or

we don't want to......

who am I?

the enlightenment?
the idea about my surrounding,
the truth.

I'm scared,
I'm so scared.

knowing the fact that,
the ability of my fellow beings capacity to act,
to show smile in their face,
even before the people they hates,
even to the worst enemies,

I'm scared,

no,no
I'm confused.